I'm in one of those moods right now, fed up of everything and everyone. A real low point.
I hate the way I look, my body is horrible right now and it's all my own fault. These past couple of months I've been feeding myself so much crap. Maybe a subconcious way of getting over the breakup, to be honest I still can't believe that happened the way it did. I just feel that no one gives a crap anymore. Does my love and friendship mean nothing? I feel that I give so much, so so much and all I get back in return is pain and suffering. Is someone trying to tell me something, will I never be good enough for someone else? How does everyone else get to find a guy that they're happy with, while I get stuck with bastards who live on the other side of the world. How is this fair? I try so hard to be a good friend, daughter, sister, girlfriend but I just get crap in return. I'm lied to and made to feel like shit. I just don't know how much longer I can go on like this. Am I just expecting too much?
