That awkward moment when....

That awkward moment when your boyfriend would rather spend time with your sister than with you. Welcome to the current story of my life. How am I meant to feel? How am I meant to be having a good time when he's currently on the other sofa sat next to her when I'm sat here all on my own. I mean aren't there boundries, is it not supposed to be not ok when he's laid liberally across her lap. I feel used, I feel unloved and most of all these past few days I've just been so freaking miserable. Having him spend time with me over christmas was meant to be wonderful but instead I just feel like crying the whole time. I'm just so fucking fed up of both of them, she doesn't seem to give a crap about my feelings either, its just all about her all the time and I'm so fed up of it. If she's not pregnant then she's depressed and if she's not depressed she's still the favourite with dad. I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel so lost and so alone. I just want to spend some time with someone who wants to spend time with me, someone who doesn't keep asking for someone else.

Yeah merry fucking christmas.