Being in Love

People say that as a teenager you are too young to fall in love. This I disagree with, partly because I am a teenager and partly just due to the fact that love is ambiguous. You cannot describe love to someone, everyone has different meanings to the word and I believe people feel and show it in different ways.

Although I'm only 17, I believe I can say I've been in love twice. The first time was for the most part amazing, apart from the whole long distance thing, we had been great friends beforehand, the transition felt natural, we got on like a house on fire and it really did feel like we were meant for each other, that was until he broke up with me. He was also my first proper real boyfriend and so far has been the best one. Like I've said before, I know I shouldn't compare, but I can't help it, it's a natural thing to do.

I'm now in my second long term relationship, getting close to 7 months, granted we've only properly been together about a month, the rest has been long distance...again. Fucking earthquake.

Yet this one doesn't seem so perfect. Maybe my expectations are just raised too high but I see other couples and realise that they're not. I should feel wanted, like I'm the only girl he wants, like he enjoys talking to me. For the most part I don't feel this at all, like I've said before, I feel like I'm a chore to him that he doesn't really want me. Then there are those odd moments where he says something and it magically turns it all around, he says something really adorable which make me feel that he does really care. Then he goes and throws it all back in my face.

What do I do?