Here I go

Well here I am, starting a blog. Again.

I don't expect many people to find this an interesting blog to read but I need somewhere to get away from everything. I have a youtube, a twitter, a tumblr, you name it I have it but I still don't have a way or a place where I can express myself completely. Every site I'm on, I'm connected with people I know, people I see a lot and lets be honest I don't want them to know a lot of the things that go on in my life or my honest opinion about them. I need somewhere I can get things off my chest, somewhere I can't be judged because of who I am.

So that's why I'm starting this blog, not that I need to justify myself as I doubt this will be read, I just need to know that I've got somewhere to rant, somewhere I can say what's on my mind and not worry about offending someone by saying the wrong thing. Somewhere I can't lose my friends by saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.

I don't know why it's taken me so long to start blogging, I guess I was worried no one would read it, then I realized that I didn't care what people thought, I don't need to be accepted. Ok that's not true, I do care. That's part of my problem, I always feel like I'm judged, I feel the need to be accepted, I want to fit in. I'm sure most people do just no one really wants to admit it. I wish I wasn't like this, I wish I was happy with who I was, didn't feel the need to compare myself to other people but I do and I've realized that I do it more and more.

So here I am, letting everything out on this website, it's strange how the internet serves it's purposes and if anyone I know is reading this, I'd rather you didn't tell me. Just read and don't judge.